I WILL KILL THIS CHILD I AM CARRYING IN MY WOMB IMMEDIATELY AFTER I DELIVER HIM

"DOCTOR I WILL KILL THIS CHILD I AM CARRYING IN MY WOMB IMMEDIATELY AFTER I DELIVER HIM: TEARY  AND SCARY TRUE LIFE STORY.

NOTE: I have the permission of Miss Rose (not real name) to share the bitter story of her life with you so that you can learn from it and also help her on the way forward if you can. Let me take you through her cruel life journey..........

I was inside my consulting room as the young pregnant woman walked in. She was looking depressed. I offered her a seat. She was silent even when I greeted her. That showed me the gravity of her burden. " Miss Rose ( as her name appeared behind the file) what can I do for you?" . Her loud silence still greeted my question. "Hello madam Rose,  what can I do for you?" Then she came around suddenly.  (So she was lost in her thoughts all the while I have been talking to her. Wow. What could this matter be?)

She finally responded "Good afternoon doctor" . " Madam what is the issue?" Tears rolled down her cheeks. She answered me by questioning me back "doctor, are there times you are tired of life and you feel like dying or killing yourself?" I kept quiet for a while putting together all my knowledge on psychology, medical education and medical experience to really understand the depth of that question. I answered her "yes". Immediately I said yes, her face and eyes brightened up. (Something like "okay so I am not alone". I could guess instantly that this patient was throwing her self reflection on me). 

I went further to tell her that all of us have one battle or the other that we are fighting.  It is what makes us human. She breathed in and out and relaxed her chair. I asked her again " Madam Rose go ahead and tell me what the problem is, so that I can see how I can help you." .Then she dropped the bombshell " DOCTOR I WILL KILL THIS CHILD I AM CARRYING IN MY WOMB IMMEDIATELY AFTER I DELIVER HIM"

I didn't know when I screamed "why?". She responded "Doctor I am  tired of life. There is nothing I am doing in this world anymore. I will kill the baby and kill myself". Okay madam can you calm down and tell me all that happened that made you felt this decision you wanted to take is the only way out. She sighed; with her eyes full of  tears,she began to tell me all that had happened to her in life so far."

"Doctor I am just 31 years old. I lost my father in an accident when I was 14 years old. My mother gave birth to 13 of us. I am number 9 out of the 13 children. We were very poor as my dad was a taxi driver but he managed to see some of us through secondary school. None of us went to a higher institution. We always stopped after secondary school to learn a trade. My father would tell whosoever was concerned among us that that was the level he could sponsor the person and he needed to focus on the younger ones. 

When our father died, almost six of us had not finished secondary school ;my four younger ones, myself and my immediate elder brother.  My mother had no job. She was only struggling with petty farming. After our daddy died, one of our daddy's family members that gave my mum the land for farming collected it from her.  So my mother had nothing doing any more. Among my elder ones that had finished secondary school, some were still apprentices in various places. Only our eldest brother had finished learning tailoring and owned his own shop. He too was just managing to feed himself and the girl he had impregnated.

"Doctor this was the beginning of my full sorrow in life. I had to abandon secondary school to work and feed myself and my mum with my younger ones at least.  I did any unskilled labour available.  From bricklaying, to sweeping the street, to working as a house girl to going to farms to work for people." 

"One day my mother was sick. We needed money for her hospital bill. I had to run to our daddy's best friend who insisted on having sexual intimacy with me before giving me the money. I was just 16 years old then. Eventually he forced me and had his way. He was the first man to take my virginity. He gave me the money though and warned me not to tell a soul if I still needed more money and that I could keep coming to him."

"Doctor I went back several times because of my mom's sickness and he took advantage of me those several times. Eventually i got pregnant. I told him. He took me to where he forced me to abort the pregnancy. After that I got pregnant again for him. This time around I opened up to my sick mother who said I should never abort the child. This led to a serious fight between my sick mother and my dad's friend, which made him to abandon me and the child to my sick mother. My mother continued to take care of the child despite her sickness while I continued my hustle to take care of the family and the new addition."

"After like 3 years after my first child saga, in the midst of the struggle and hussle to feed my child, my sick mother and the rest of the family, I met one of my secondary school classmates who I told everything about my problems and what I had gone through in life.  He really showed sympathy for me and promised to marry me because he had always loved me since when we were in secondary school. Doctor to cut the long story of that relationship short, He impregnated me and did not end up marrying me. He also abandoned me and disappeared to thin air, making me to have two children from two fathers. I promised and even vowed to myself that I would have nothing to do with men and marriage anymore."

"Doctor like 4 years after the second saga, I met one widower who had lost his wife and had only one child. He promised to marry me and take good care of me. I thought my suffering had ended until I was pregnant and I wanted to bring my other two children to stay with us in his house; that was when fight broke out between me and his family. They prevailed on him to chase me out of his house that my plan would  be to kill him and inherit his properties with my children from other men."

"How they arrived at this conclusion was baffling for me. This was how I gave birth to the third child for the third father  who also abandoned me and the child. All these 3 children are with my mother despite her being in and out of hospital for her own sickness. I continued my struggling and hussling to feed all the souls that depended on poor me. I renewed my vow of not having anything to do with any man for the rest of my life."

"Doctor, this the 4th child I am carrying for the fourth man. I met the father of this present pregnancy in one restaurant where I was helping people to sell food. He showed serious care to me and my three children. He came to meet my mother and my family. I thought my problems were finally over. Doctor this man also deceived me like others. He told me he owned one big mechanic shop. He even took me there one day. I discovered later he was just an apprentice in the shop. He was just managing with one of his friends in one room. He eventually abandoned me too."

"Doctor I have not been attending antenatal care for all these children. I just go to hospital for delivery. Now here I am doctor with 4th pregnancy for the fourth man. Doctor I cannot continue with this cruel world again. I want to die may be I can rest from all  the troubles of my life" She concluded, weeping.

Dear readers, ladies and gentlemen, this is the story of Miss Rose. Till now I don't know how to solve these problems. This is the reason why I have taken permission from her to ask for your contibution, suggestion, solution and opinion. You can reach me through my social media below. 

Meanwhile as I wait for your contribution, let me share with you the 6 lessons I learnt from Miss Rose sorry story:

LESSON NUMBER 1:

A man is supposed to plan his life and family if he will not create a generational problem after he has left this world. How on earth did you give birth to 13 children as a taxi driver? Children you knew you couldn't take care of. See all the woes your family had to go through after your departure.  This is a great lesson for every parent ( fathers and mothers). Family planning is very key in life.

LESSON NUMBER 2:

Poverty is a curse,a limitation, a dream killer and destiny changer and it is also a risk factor for all sorts of crimes and setbacks in life. Do all you can within the will of God to overcome poverty in life.

LESSON NUMBER 3:

Never put your trust in any man.They will fail and fall you. You read what the father's best friend did after his death?.

LESSON NUMBER 4:

Men this is to you please. I appeal to you in life never use the predicament and poverty of a woman to take advantage of her. God will avenge her in due time even if she cannot fight you back today.

LESSON NUMBER 5:

This is to you women. Using your body as an escape route out of poverty. It is being less than human. It is very demeaning and shameful. Go and work with your hands than depending on men to bail you out of your ordeal by exchanging your body for money.

LESSON NUMBER 6: 

Don't commit suicide or murder like Miss Rose was planning to commit suicide and planing to murder an innocent unborn child that knows nothing about her predicament. It is not the solution, I am sure of this. There will definitely be a way out as far as you turn to God.

Please i will be looking forward to your contribution and solution to Miss Rose's problems. Thank you

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